Saturday, May 26, 2007

PARADOX OF CHOICES


More the available choices, better the environment is said to be. We all try to place ourselves in the position where all the "options are open" for us i.e we always prefer a decision which makes us richer at least in the availability of choices. But presently i am discovering a paradox in this nature that we knowingly or unknowingly exihibit. With another year passing by and the day when the doors of college will close for me (as i'll pass out-hopefully), nearing up , i am forced to think about what my next move will be. I have many alternatives available- go for a job (not as rewarding as the myth about iit placements is) , give a shot at CAT, brush up vocabulary for GRE, our exile from everything and start preparing for Civil Services (an option which once a dream i lived for). The options are so diverse that u got to make a decision now , particularly if you are thinking about any of the options apart from the first one. Choices are many and decision is crucial and will shape the rest of the life. Take a bad decision and with it have a repentance for life. Many times i feel that is it me only who is troubled by this decision dilemma or are others too caught in same turmoil. Am i over reacting to the problem at hand or problem is actually that big but others have thought about it.
Recently i met one of my friend, who was in NDA and asked what choices do they have, straight came the reply, we don't have any choices, according to our performance in the four years we will be send to air force, navy or army and one will be commisisoned one year after the specialized training. Even promotions are mostly time based so and work to be centrally assigned so no choices in that too. Leaving forces is out of question. So what i concluded is that as soon as he opted for NDA he was relieved from this pain of making choices that i have right now. This means that he can enjoy his vacations better with no tension of any decision to be made and he can concentrate harder on what he does rather than thinking reviewing every step and analysing that towards which path the action will take us.
I follow the legendary CEO and co-founder of Apple inc. Mr.Steve Jobs and he in one of his addresses said that whenever you are confronted with such a situation always think that if u knew that u were to die tomorrow and before dying still you have to make the decision , the decision made in such scenario is the best for every individual. But in mine case this trick is of least help because using such high end philosophical tricks one needs to be as philosophical as Mr. Jobs. I wonder that how do people inculcate such skills in them or more importantly how do they zero out to single choice before making a decision. I keep wondering and then surrender as there is no single reason which i can account for it. For the first time i am understanding the importance of philosophical knowledge , something which i had been ridiculing for past few years. I now realise that how weak and indecisive i am. I don't really know myself and neither i know any means at present ,by which i can discover my true self. Introspection is on but in unguided manner and will lead me to no where. I can just hope that before my vacations end , i reach a decision and the decision should be such that i never have to repend for it in the future.

2 comments:

Abhimanyu said...

so wot did u decide???????

INFERNO said...

after lot of brain-storming i thought that probably choices are better than having none at all